I want to be
Your one, Your only.
Your one, Your only.
The Ladiie
"SakurakoOimikado.
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Neither i drink,smoke or club.
Music makes me sway.
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Monday, June 29, 2009
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i fall sick fer e last 3 days.
i had high fever which leads me lying down dead
on my bed.
i dint eat n cnat sleep well.
i feel so umeasy.
i got nothing much to say now.
the mood is not bck yet even ive recovered but not totally.
i will update more wen im better..
to suunylove,
thnks fer being so carin towrds me.
love u lots sayang.
meetin u soon honey.
muax
xoxo
Written by; ♥sakurako
Thursday, June 25, 2009
[stupid moody dae!]
ouh my god people! wat a dae i shud call it? damn boring!arrgh! jus wen im gona hav a job. dammn it! i feel so fucked up todae.. totally no mood to do anything.. feel so bore! life jus sucks todae.. it sucks alot! my time jus waste like dat. had no money in hand now. cnt survive! beta be dead den live in a world dat lands with no money inhand!
at home wat did i do? i did nothing at lot. got not strenght to do housewerk or anything else. i dint help much. i jus get naggings n scoldin frm dat aunty.hummph! im gettin tired of everything. jus like half dead fish waiting to being throw in e water n b alive again. okeoke i noe i talk craps here. but do i owe u things dat i cnt crap n my own blog asshole? u hate it fuck off.! u cant stand it? jus click [x] and get over it. it my blog n my say. i need no comments frm u people.!
u guys are jus sick n super idiotics morrons! neva get tired to noe about others life story.
gosh.. GOD please i need some thing in mind dat i cud come up with n make myself happy. n entertain my own self! arrgh!!! damn it..
totally out of mood n werds!..
sucks big time fuck!
Labels: moody dae
Written by; ♥sakurako
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
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MISSING YOU BADLY, SUNNY
fers of all sory to sunny's fren. hee i crop his pichas. haa. well i need oni sunny pic. =)
we hav noot much talk nowadaes.he has been bz lately werkin n e morning n come bck late at nite. n hav less rest at home n lack of sleep as need to wake up early in e morning to go to werk. i realli missed hym. well i understand hys situation now. findin money to survive n not to burden hys parents.he told me tat before.he wana b independent on feedin hys on rice bowl without troublin families.i reali glad n feel so touch of e wae he thinkin.
although we rarely text or call. i noe he think of me in anywae.even if he is eatin. maybe. wild guess. well koz i think of hym evry min n sec.not even awhile. of course i cnt laa. haa. lame lol! but we did atleast text ech other wenevar we free.=)he dint neglect me anyhow. n he did ask me how am i or whether ive taken my dinner or lunch or watsoeva.n he didi kip hys werds n promises dat i will not feelin lonely or neglected. well alhamdullilah he is man with hys werds n promises.
my life had been such a bore nowadaes well lookin fer jobs but none of them respond to it anywae. been wastin my ezlink goin here n ther but arrgh!! but come on ary dun give up..
hee okee. i wont.. lame !! been stayin at home fer days.freaaaakin boriiing people. well i guess sunny must be sleepin now. nvm let hym sleep. gettin bored laa all dae n evrydae bloggin, tagged, msn n repeat all tat again e nxtdae.. but wen sunny is online!! i feel alive.!! haha,,
n jyeah.. efaYeolita bdae is comin! soon in few mins tym.
happi 18th bdae dear efah
hee..
Labels: i miss sunny so much
Written by; ♥sakurako
Monday, June 22, 2009
[badbad dream!]
hey readers.
i wana share with u about my dream i had last nite, it was so scary.and efa it remind me of u. but my dream are kinda diff frm urs. but its about death too. gosh.
in dat dream i was awake by a loud noise. the sounds is like a big crash. and a loud explode! boooom! i wake everybody in e house to let them see wat happen outside ther. but they seems not to hear me. i shout at e top of my throat! but still dey jus keep quite n not bother about it. but i was wondering whether they hear me or not. or my voice went silent! then i take my own risk by goin out ther alone by myself to take a look. from e top view at my corridor, i saw a pool of blood on e road.! then i saw alot of dead bodies. some head was being cut off, some parts of e body was seperated by e bodies. and thers baby too. gosh i burst into tears. i was scared plus shocked! i went down to take a closer look. n i saw this small boy running towards me he said ' kakak run fer ur life kakak' its not safe here.' den before he cud finish he talkin, he was being shot by a men with a gun. oh my god! he is such a innocent. but i was wondering if he killed tat child y he dint kill me as well. den i continue my journey. guess wat i saw. all my relatives was down dead lyin on e ground with blood . i cry out loud shoutin fer help but my voice jus cnt let out. it was as if stuck insyd my throat. i was shivering! i approach this man, i ask hym, excuse me wat actuali happen here. y evrybody was shot dead? y are all e innocents human was bing killed?? but thers no replied at alll. hello!!! im talkin to u old man.
i was tapped by a old lady, she said. thers no point of u talkin shoutin to anybody here. koz dey are not goin to hear u out. i was blur! i ask why s dat so? are they dead? i cn see e dead people?
then she replied wat if the other wae round young lady? my eyes open wide! my heart says wat are u tryin to say? she noe wat i was saying in heart. go on n search fer e truth my dear.
and people. before i wake upfrom that dream i was found dead. n thats y i was not hear by anybody.. =(
it was scray to me. but i dont bother koz it jus a bad dream.
haixx...
i wana share with u about my dream i had last nite, it was so scary.and efa it remind me of u. but my dream are kinda diff frm urs. but its about death too. gosh.
in dat dream i was awake by a loud noise. the sounds is like a big crash. and a loud explode! boooom! i wake everybody in e house to let them see wat happen outside ther. but they seems not to hear me. i shout at e top of my throat! but still dey jus keep quite n not bother about it. but i was wondering whether they hear me or not. or my voice went silent! then i take my own risk by goin out ther alone by myself to take a look. from e top view at my corridor, i saw a pool of blood on e road.! then i saw alot of dead bodies. some head was being cut off, some parts of e body was seperated by e bodies. and thers baby too. gosh i burst into tears. i was scared plus shocked! i went down to take a closer look. n i saw this small boy running towards me he said ' kakak run fer ur life kakak' its not safe here.' den before he cud finish he talkin, he was being shot by a men with a gun. oh my god! he is such a innocent. but i was wondering if he killed tat child y he dint kill me as well. den i continue my journey. guess wat i saw. all my relatives was down dead lyin on e ground with blood . i cry out loud shoutin fer help but my voice jus cnt let out. it was as if stuck insyd my throat. i was shivering! i approach this man, i ask hym, excuse me wat actuali happen here. y evrybody was shot dead? y are all e innocents human was bing killed?? but thers no replied at alll. hello!!! im talkin to u old man.
i was tapped by a old lady, she said. thers no point of u talkin shoutin to anybody here. koz dey are not goin to hear u out. i was blur! i ask why s dat so? are they dead? i cn see e dead people?
then she replied wat if the other wae round young lady? my eyes open wide! my heart says wat are u tryin to say? she noe wat i was saying in heart. go on n search fer e truth my dear.
and people. before i wake upfrom that dream i was found dead. n thats y i was not hear by anybody.. =(
it was scray to me. but i dont bother koz it jus a bad dream.
haixx...
God loves me and dats y he gave me e next life wake up e next dae to breathe. jus wats e message by tat dream..=(
Labels: bad dream ever
Written by; ♥sakurako
Sunday, June 21, 2009
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FEELING SCARED JUS HOPE
EVERYTHING WILL GOIN
TO BE JUST FINE. =(
Written by; ♥sakurako
Saturday, June 20, 2009
[my happy moments]
hello diary,
geez~ yesterdae had a nice n beautiful chat with my beloved sunny.tat was e nite was my most sweetestmemory with hym.jyeah even at MSN.well bascically fer me love dont need to show infront of e person itselfs. doesnt need to meet face to face. u cn do it anywae even ur far distance frm e person u love.
not by sayin e werd i love u . telling evryone in ths world dat u love hym/ her. its e action dat play part in tihs which called 'LOVE'. its e wae u show to them how much u love n care.n how deep u willin to sacrifise. jus do n love doesnt need to ask fer in return. wen ure sincere in lovin e someone it will be fer sure ur love will be return by love. it cant be force. it comes natrually. people who love e someone on e outside n not frm e insyd. tell them 'u hav made e wrong step'. well, lovin e someone from e outsyd doesnt mean good or it sincere. it jus dat ure choosy, n ure not wiiling to accept those who are not perfect in ur eyes. but infact life no body is perfect even me. everybody feel love. it jus dat their love been rejected coz of few 'disability' like they are overweight, no figure, no looks, no personality dat impressed people, outdated, old fashion.etc.
which is so damn unfair to them. dont u hav e brain to think or spare about their feelings? don jus love them tru e phone n their sweet voice. all e love werds n e hopes that u gav to them . during e point u guys dated them n got to noe dat that guy or girl are simply ugly to u n brings u bad name fer like no taste of choosing partners. why bother?why must u think about wat people said? but u people sometimes think highly fer urself. u always need pretty n hawt stuff babes. but u dun noe them frm e insyd. u noe wat i mean by sayin tat.
even jus 2 months noein hym. i cud feel dat he is e type of guy tat evry girls dream off n to be with. i felt lucky to noe smebody like hym.in e fers place i tot he is e same as those guys ive known b4. tat go fer e "assets". but infact i got it wrong n he manage to prove me wrong. he give me courage n motivation of movin on with life. im here not tryin to bring hys name on top of e world but it jus e matter wat i think n feel about hym. yesterdae i tears of joy. because yesterdae is e dae i realy feel e love comin towrds me n give me sense of love enterin my soul down to my feet. afta i heard this song by lil wayne n jay sean - DOWN. i noe wat he tryin to tell me. i noe n understand n i cud get wat he wana sae to me. tat nite my heart pumpin fast follow e beat of e love songs. i repeated it as it has become my drug dat addicts me to it. i dint noe he is dat lovin . so called romantic? yes he is fer my personal point of view.he treats me so well n observed me evry step of my daily life.with e love werds n e love phrase.i noe tat wasnt jus any sweets werds jus to make me feel hapi . but i noe it from e bottom of hys pure heart.i noe he love n i noe he care. i cud sense it. i cud feel it. my instinct told me so.it always rite this tym. i hope fate is beside us.tat nite was a surprise fer me. which i wont ferget.it will remain fresh it mind n nver will fade.ive confirm about my feelings.he made me so bright. he make so evrything. he had fulfill e empticious heart of mine with full of love.yes at times we did argue about small stuff but he make me smile weneva i feel so down . lonely. i dunno about u guys maybe i think im too over react over this love which to u guys is not confirm. but i don care.im e one who feel it. i cud feel it. e burning love waiting fer us. n evry niter i keep on saying.' thanks ALLAH fer sending me SUNNY to me. a guy who willing to accept me fer who i am. n dint bother about wat i am.' i keep saying tat non stop. n i had dis dream. i dream of an old man. i met hym in my dream tat was at a random bus stop. he saw me frownin n lookin so sad. he approached me and said dis which shocked me. "cu, jgn kamu bersedih. tiada gunanya tangisi atas org yg sudah khianati kamu dan tiada gunanya kamu merayu kepada org yg sudah hancurkan kamu. bangunlah kamu dari tidur mu cu n sedar la bahawa cinta mu sudah ada di depan mata hanya tunggu mase untuk menentu kan kalian". i did awake afta dat dream. it reali gives me a goosebumps. dat was at 3am in e morning. maybe ti u guys it was jus stupid dream. but i think it send msg to me. love is infront of ma eyes. i was thinkin who e person is. then i heard voices saying "look infront" i think its my instinct told me to. i saw SUNNY's photo dat jus developed from e kodak shop. tat i said to myself :maybe its hym dat man talkin about."
from there afta wat happen to me n sunny in e previous days passed we quarrel i realised dat he is e person tat i love most n needed most in life.
GOD PLEASE give me tat chance to be with hym.
i reali hope dat he is e person tat im lookin fer.
n im ready to settle down even it still early to said tis.
LOVE U SAYANG.
ARY.
Written by; ♥sakurako
Friday, June 19, 2009
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heelloo..
haha.. enif of tat crap jus now i post.
todae i was thinkin about us. i had this calm feeling. its e wae i feel wen i was alone lookin at all pichas.people wud think im crazy, people wud think im insane wateva people's thought are, i dont give a damn n i dun care. it was me who feel it. e sensation wen im in love. i cud feel it wen i send me a sense to my feet n whole body. took a blanket cover myself up as though i was cuddled tite n cud feel e warmth of u. this may all sweets werds to u but it jus real n reality. tis feeling is alive. ! i reali does.!
I love you more than words can say.
I love you more and more each day.
I think of you each night and day.
Before I met you, my days were gray.
Baby, quick kiss me and tell me you'll stay.
If you go out with me, I'll pay.
Oh Darling, please don't go away.
Our love will never fade away.
With you by my side I can't go astray.
I'd like to kiss you, if I may.
I love you more and more each day.
I think of you each night and day.
Before I met you, my days were gray.
Baby, quick kiss me and tell me you'll stay.
If you go out with me, I'll pay.
Oh Darling, please don't go away.
Our love will never fade away.
With you by my side I can't go astray.
I'd like to kiss you, if I may.
waitwaitwait im not done!! haaaa
well i jus remembered about sunny's message.
Sunny msg @17:38:48 ; b, i mimpi u kol i .. den u kate tak mao kol2 u lagi semua... =(
haha.. kinda cute of hym jus now. he get so at ease wen i get to sms hym. ! haaa. i jus cnt wait fer hym to reply me todae afternoon. hee. well too excited till i dun noe how to express it. ouh ya.. see my tagboard. i was touched wen i read those msg he send me.i feel hyslove now talkin about dat. aww.. im deeply in love! im innnnn looooooove !!! i feel so lively n i feel so damn happy. he make me happy even im sad. actuali even if he did nothing to excite me im still happy wen hearing hys voice. i love u bie. u hav fulfill my emticious space in heart.thnk gos fer sendin u to me. hee. lovely!
Labels: sunny i love you
Written by; ♥sakurako
Thursday, June 18, 2009
[stupid jerk!!!]
i got so frustrated and angry! wat is ther fer u guys to intefere in my love matters? i dun need ur comments people. i dun need any. cant u giv give me a piece of peace mind?! wat is ther to earn and gain from inteferring others people affair. irritating creature.! he thinks he is hot n superb, u are jus a boy tat noes nothing abt tis.. ouh come on grow up 21 years old jerks. do u think im scared of u? im not as timid like u did. i aint a girl whom u called 'minah' koz in my own world dat word doesnt exist fuck!
ouh SUNNY? dat name had been said out alot of tyms by u . why? he owe u things? or he owe u a cent? he is not somebody u think of. sorts of things in ur fuckin brain is not hym at all. ure wrong.! u are wrong NORRIZ! u are 10 times big fuck den those outsiders. haha.. wat a morron.! sayin things which doesnt even happen. create a wonderful 'fairy tales' as if ure a big fuck in TAMP. ur werds a jus lies norriz. ure nothing. slight pinch and ure gone foreva. ur looks are jus to innocent fer me to sae alot of things about u. pity u norriz. hahahaa. i cud make e whole world know how big fuck u are. small matter make a big huha. ur stories cant attrct people norriz open ur eyes idiot! people are jus playin around with u. infact it has been along time ive waited to tell everyone about u asshole. LOL! ive hold on to alot of creative stories about wat u told me the real u. haha.. which to me is sucks big tym. ur stories are all rubbish! dump it n burn it up norriz ure suckz . even ur own family cnt stand lukin at ur face. cause of ur attitude tat make them face n carry all ur duins.. wat a shame boi. its tyme fer u to get a life boi. dun sit n stare coz u gona drop dead! WELL back to ur stories, . . .
- he said he hold hys area - which to me is a crap
- he said he beats people up - as fer me hys face is e one tat need to be bash up
- he said he aint a scarycat tat scared with all those junks outside - which to me aint true haa. he is a mice!
- he talk much about tis about tat - which to me hys werds are all lies n creation to make people think he is a hero!
- he said he bought a branded bag fer hys ex - from wat i noe he dint hold much money n still depends on hys mum tats wat hys mum told me.
- he said he is strong - which i was told he is a cry baby
- he said he dare to do anything - from wat i observed he feel alive wen thers big superb guys around. haa.
- he got alot of werds to say - but in real life he somebody who cnt deal with people. haaa. big age but still a boy
wellwelllwell. i think enuf for now. koz frm here you guys noe who is he actuali. haa..wellactuali im not done yet by nvm.. haaa. cnt be bothered oreadi. well i miss u my mr sunny!! loveu lots syg...
Labels: stupid asshole NORRIZ
Written by; ♥sakurako
[oh my god ary !!]
wallaa...!!
hahaa.. ary wat a blogskin! jyeah well u guys must be thinkin am i ryte or am i not ryte? haaa =) well actuali i changed this cause of my love. haa. he criticized my blogskin n songs earlier badbad!! haa. poke hys eyes.. haa. he said it suck! omg! haa. but nvm wen i hear it bck.'REWIND EM!' haa yeap kinda sux! so i found dis blogskins under ermm opps i fergot e category of which. nvm haa. i find kiut n gerlish. so i think sunny wud prefer this hmmm jus wait till he comments it, if it not to hys expectation den hav to change it again .. haa.
tat all.. jus to update hee..
love u syg.
Labels: change of blogskins
Written by; ♥sakurako
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good mawnink journal,
actuali im kinda tired to blog. cause ive been sleepin late n wake up early in e morn. well as fer todae boreddom strike me but not as the dae before. haa, todae i went fer an interview at katong complex and changi airport T2 i guess. at katong complex i went fer interview as sales assistance, well wat i was told. tat shop was selling all halal products dat inport from diff countries like new zealand,austrialia and south africa.e interview went smoothly n perfect. n tmr i hav to go to their head office at admiralty omg! dats far.. gosh i duno whether i cud make it at 10am.damn! supposingly i hav to go to toa payoh fer interview as well under wingtai but i cancelled it as not much tym left. so i had to flee those chances. nvm. haix.. butbutbut tmr im not sure if i cud make tru. hmm. afta done all e question dat curious me. =) i went off to paya lebar. i was like a baby lost her wae. i got no idea wher i was heading to haa.. i den saw popular at level basement i guess. i browse around n i found a sketch book. so i grab it n NETS it. haa. upupup all e wae. escalator up! haa.i was den saw this few mats hmm,. no tbad but sunny beta den eva. like duh! i walk infront of them n i heard dem talkin about a girl i was den blur at moment i was stunt! noe wat! they sae??
mat wearing cap:"maots per ni minah. bontot sek! haha!"
fuckin shit dey were lukin at my butt! asshole ! n yet call me MINAH??wtf! i aint no minah oke guys get it?
all e wae dey were talkin about ma butt. i felt so ashamed. gosh i was blushing n cud see my face turned red.! such a big morrons! they were headin up fer smoke break i heard then i wana avoid them n i went insyd e this fashion outlet. before tat while i wass walkin they were sayin "sombong sey tak senyum kat kiter org2 ni" i jus shut my ears with headphone n walk in tat shop! i waited fer about 10 mins.i went up e escalator i still see dem ther.. haiyaa... i jus walk n dont give a damn! dey did followed me to e mrt station arrgg! looks like pshyco! nyaahaa.. but like fer reali oke. ! den they stop me at this mr bean small shop.. they took off their fone n saed." hey sweets can we hav ur nos?" i sae no as i was headin in a rush to meetmy fiancee haa.. like real in actual fact i was goin to changi airport, haa..
reached T2 den i continue my journey n i saw BREEKS i went in fer an interview i was approach by a chi guy he was so polite n cool haa.. we offered me to hav a sit while waitin fer e manager to end their meetin. meetin over fer about 15min of waitin. =) den i was called up to see e manager .. gosh i was nervous. as alot of eyes lookin at me. am i a clown u guys lookin at? i was interviewed by a philiphine maam i guess. haa.. had a coversation very exciting n interestin.. such a hilarious manager.. but i wasnt conferm yet to get place ther. she told e if i was tposted to town area wud i be able to make it.. hmm i will struggle as imma not a good tym managment.. need to learn to..e purposed of her postiin me far from home because she already had alot of part n full timer.. but she offered me to other outlets diff name but same company i sae i dun mind at all.. den she was asked to giv 2 days to consider.. hmm i hopei i wud get a place der.. hee..
so loong journal.!!
Labels: searchin fer job
Written by; ♥sakurako
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
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wello darlings =)
ferz of all sorry fer not updatin about yesterdae. as i was havin a terrible n horrible dae plus my stomach pain was so pinching. ouch! grrr.. i stuck in e toilet fer almost an hour!gosh. imagine tat.sweatin n drench over own sweat!yuuuuccckz! had my shower to refresh myself up. i was lyin dead on e bed until sunny text me.then we had a chitchat fer about hmm..half an hour. ?hee.. all my pain vanished afta heard hys voice.
like duh! pathetic me! =) ouh my god! guess wat i still hav 10 more months to end tis so called 'HOLIDAY' but yet not even a job i get in. damn.n hav to spend daes weeks months at home!my life get bored. hav been planning out alot of activities but none came out to be fer sure to go! hmmph! well i feel so sick n damn lifeless goin tru dis n dat dis n dat like those daes passed.come on....!! what more else to think n plan out fer thing to make ot happen..?meetin sunny??? hmm not e tym yet larh.=) waitwaitwait n wait kaes.
tomorow i hav to go fer an interview at toa payoh! wow dats far.! haa.. hav to travel all e wae ther fer an interview. well hav to n willingly to go.hopefully tmrs' goes smooth n fyne.i oweas fergot to ask this ques to e interviewer. "what are the benefits i get if i work with e company fer long term?" hmm.. n e last interviwed was unsuccessfull dint even receive any calls or respond frm them. hmm.dissapointed. well tmr will b confident n professional. pray fer me yar guys.! if i was employ gona treat u guys. ermm some laa. depends haa.!NO MAKE UP! natural concept tmr! haa. natural BEAUTY-fool! hahaa..
now i fel like eating chcken royal baked pasta! haa.. wow.. with e cheese tat spread over on top of e pasta! tat will melt in ur moist mouth!! fuuuh!!!the taste was sooooooo scrumptious, appetizing,n luscious !!!
gona hav tat soon!! wana join? at PIZZA HUT! haa.
okeokeoke....
now lets get bck to wher it stop about criticising..
wana noe wat? she make damn big into this matter which is called 'DOPE!'.. urrgh..called ur guy up n teel wat u did wrong n yet e stupid idiot syded u? hey of course laa he syded tat jinx! they both are equally moron!okeoke.. im kinda lazy to entertain u guys! no wat jus one more werd n one more stepped u guys dead!
Written by; ♥sakurako
Monday, June 15, 2009
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hi again diary!
well im not at ease wen people criticised my love. what is der to talk about? ouh come on sillypigs, evrybody was born with a name given asshole!ther nothing funny about e name of SUNNY. duh! i dun find it funny or ticklish to laugh at. ouh.. or maybe u guys were born without a name? wat a pity.! sud i give each of u a name? i dun think so cause once i said it fer sure ur head down. suck big tyme ass! jus go n suck or daddy's bigdumplingballs! bite it hard n choked it! damn u morron!
if u guy just cant stand perpandicular on the ground urself, so dun judge anybody, mirror urself.!
dun get jealous over wat i hav in my hands, cause u will neva get to gain it. dream on bitch. maybe u people thin criticisingis a normal thingy in life which done by e sillypigs. but im not e fool dat u guys tot i cud tolerate. m not gona shut before i shut their bloody stink mouth! so wat if u think im making a big huuhaa over this tiny matter. well u guys dun feel it cause u guys are no diff frm whore! dogs! neva tot i hav a fren like u doggies! backstabber! well ive jus realised who u guys are. ure guys are jus powerful wen i got my back turned. get wat i mean loser? u motherfuckers are jus rats dat rotten insyd n spoilt bitch wit brains like monkeys.why bother about me n hym? none of your business dogs! well let me tell u this.
motherfuckers like u guys are main found in e trash bin behind ur moms butt!
so loong asshole.
Labels: idiotic creature dat landed on earth
Written by; ♥sakurako
Sunday, June 14, 2009
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good moawink buggies! (:
i tot of sleepin early todae but i jus cant. my eyes still wide open n fresh like "freshly baked out from oven!!!" haaa. e picha above was sunny n hys dog glamour + e tattoo at hys skinny leg.hehe sowie dear.. just kiddin. haha.. UPDATE!!! H1N1 cases is now 34! SWINE! stupidpigs. okeoke. enuf . sunny is out to chalet at pasir ris.let hym be.. lethym hav hys tyme. pity hym afta wat happen yesterdae. n todae we both had settled it. thank GOD .feeeeeeeww! he fergiv me. yeay! well nomore doubt upon hym. givin hym mytrust..jus heard hys voice now started to miss oready .
kinda boriiiiiing! spendin my tym e whole dae at crib. like a dead fish . but im alive wen my beloved cousins came to crib jus now. mimi, waney hee. miss marGEnduts laa coz haix.. u noe tat. nvm. still hav tym.
n we did something tat make us look like an morron! haa. e wae me waney n mimi communicate with mar is tru her window jus shout across e lift corridor. pity her. she was curfewed fer 7daes jus like in prison hee.. lucky her to hav dekstop in her room or else boredom kills her in her room! haa,!(: n not to ferget todae is my superdupersillywillycurly sis 8th bedae!! happy berdae sayang!! haaa.. n later on will be goin fer swim at bedok complex. haa. sengket! nvm as long shes happie n get to swim in e pool.gona make her dae later on..ive been spendin my daes at home. hmm.. damn such a lackluster.!
i cnt denied todae oso very,dull, featureless, characterless n lifeless dae of my life! argggh!! it feel like stayin in a cage! nyaaahaahaa!
gosh its monotonous! it means the same day afta day. yes its has been like dis fer daes!!
haahaha.. im runing out of words to describe boredom!!
Labels: boredom killin me
Written by; ♥sakurako
[IVE MADE A BIGGEST MISTAKE IN LYF.]
GD afternoon diary ,
sunnylove i hope u read tis.):
ive made a big mistake in lyf. that is fer accusing my own love fer lyin n stuff. ive made hym feel so down n feel bad. iv misjudge hym fer no reason.im a nagetive thinker. i admit tat. im sorry . i tot i was rite. but infact he proved me wrong. n yes im wrong in seein upon his character n person. i dnt noticed tat he is sidin me wen hys fren being rude to me. i feel so dumb n embarrased. i felt so guiltycious. foolish me ! sayang please take bck ur werds.. please.. im willing to get punished over my mistake tat ive done. im sorry fer everything. im sorry ive been paranoid n demanding over something which i dun noe. n i react at e wrong tym. please...
he teaches me alot. he teaches me about movin on lyf n how important lyf is. he even ask me to stop duin all e bad things. so tat i wont fall into a trap. from der i realised hys love twrds me.. please syg fergive me. fergive e sins ive create over u. i make u feel so dumb. ure worth it syg u are.): its all my fault. i dun want u to go. i dun give a damn on wat people say abt me haunting fer ur love. bcoz all dis while u e one who giv me courage to move on. e motivation in lyf, ure not ego. its me who think highly fer myself.sellfish! so selfish!
im goin to make it up to u to make u think im worth to hav u. please..jus name it n wll do it fer u . as long as u stay n continue showered me with ur love n care.
love, i promise u no more of this. n im ready to face anything dat comes over me.. even its difficult fer me.
i hav to feel e fear n face e fact. maybe its bcoz of my past ive became scared of losin somebody i n love. its not a easy task to do n end it with a STOP. i tot i was a strong girl but in actual fact im weak. im weak in love. i dunoe how to think right, maybe im egoist. i shed tears wen i type all tis.
syg, now i noe e reali behind ur soul. i cud understand now.
i swear i will not repeat e attitude towrds in future. give me one last chance tat im worth it. u are e guy dat giv me bck all my laughter, joyfullness, my smile n evrythin afta wat had happen to me in e past. u make me feel at ease wen im down, u make me feel secure wen i feel so uptight. u make me laugh wen i feel so lonely. in fact u deserved all those also in life.. im sorry syg... please take bck ur werds..
this is e msg frm sunny early in this morning. i translate in eng.
- b y u sae u hate liars all tat at blog , then at tagged. who is e person i wana noe. its me ryte? jus say it lar. jyeah im a liar.i scold tat guy who answered ur call.he dint noe who u are caused i dint save at my memory.they say sorry.n if u wanna say all sorts of thing jus say. i dun myne., scold me laa. i practiced my lion dance under void deck its not dat i went to flirt.u dun believe me ryte?huh. n i play without instrument jus e head of e dragon.haiz. my competition will he held in aug. jsu few more months.n wen i said tis i noe u dun like it.i oweas bz n almost all e time i make u cry. u noe i feel bad? u cry but u dunnoe e wads the real thing is. maybe i dunhav tym with u also n i nvr call u evrtym.yalar 24/7 bz ryte??hmmph. u noe wat i dun wana make u cry anymore.! or make u feel worried n herat pain. coz im dun like people cry bcoz of me. or wadsoeva. n i think i dun wana use hp anymore n not goin to login to msn or wat. maybe frm there u wont get frustrated ryte?
- im not try to say anything la. coz i want u to be happy n trust me. but i think u cnt give me e trust. hmm.i noe its hard fer u to trust people like me.......
soory guys i cant go on with e msg dat he sent it to me..i cud feel it.. i noe he's hurt.. i cn feel it. b im sorry. i regret over wat ive done towrds u.. i love u i owaes love u b.. please. fergive me..):
Labels: regret over own reaction
Written by; ♥sakurako
Saturday, June 13, 2009
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heylo again diary .
i had a great saturday ! my beloved nephews n nieces came to ma crib. they are all so lovely,chubby & bubbly! love them lots. but in otherwise it saddens me as well. as my best cousins had to quarantine fer 7 days because her fren had positive result of havin H1N1, her parents hit it as well wen they were at AUSTRAILIA. well it had been stated earlier n clearly tat Austrailia was e haed of H1N1 now. hmm.. wat a pity cousin. hope u nothing happen to u dear. rest well at crib. happy quarantine. (:
this morning i went fer my religious class as usual. todae diff uztad. he's from indon. well. todays topic is about "poeple who is being love by our RASULLULAH during HARI KIAMAT(judgement day)". whateva i learned todae it reali captured into ma mind. how great ISLAM is. afta classes ended. we say abit of DOA. most of e muslimah shed tears as wat eva e uztad says give us e feelin of at e brighter site. ok enuuf of tat.
todae oso in e afternoon, i giv sunny a called n we talked fer about 10mins? had a small talked. jus askin hym the 'always question' . he was quite bz wen my lin ehad been terminatd fer awhile. need to settle it by tmr latest mondae. it has been days we dint even txt ech other n shared daily stories happen in life ech dae. kinda missed hym lots. he did txt me yesterdae nite. but i replied hym by via websms. tat e onli wae even such a troublesome method of msgin. damn it. haha (: he even told me not to worry koz he wont let me go.
i miss u love.hmm..
will be waitin fer u syg ..
Labels: random
Written by; ♥sakurako
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boooooooorrriiiiiinnnnnnggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat shud i call todae? superduperheticdae??gosh boredness is killin me e whole nite!damn it! suuny dint even corl me at all todae!wondering is he think of me or what.e whole dae at home doin nothing.gosh life such a bore! sick and tired laa.):not even a sms from hym.. get pissed!hummph!so what if ure bz?doesnt mean u cnt even slot a min to text me or what.argh!
im sorry im jus too emotional.f!
now what? ouh jyeah. before i fergot. haa. jus now i went out wit a 'fren' haa. went to bedok n buy food to eatfer dinner.den we sat under void deck haa.. jus i noe todae afta fer long. shes a smoker n a gummer.! wtf!so wild huh. haa. jyeah but nvr to be blame fer such duins as parents lag of love n concern fer own child. maybe. but fer her case not very sure. haa. only 16 but yet.. haa. i think wosrt den me? haa.
dunnoe e reali me yet. nvm jus let be it secrets between me n myself, heea. dont need to make such a huuuuhaa.thingy well not important of exposing ur own butt!past is past.but if i still do, tats none of their business cause i grown up wit tis life n jyeah none hav e ryte to stop it coz i lead ma wae..those motherfuckers jus step bck dun move a inch of r foot step or ull regret. jus sit n play pick-up-stick with ur damn mummy n keep it tite under armpit.well im too harsh on ma werds? i dun think so koz i noe u guys deserved it.! dos idioticpatheticirritating creature!neva i ask fer ur opinion or any to comments out from ur fuckin mouth. well if im bad be it, if im a spoilt brats leave it koz u earn nothing fyi ur werds doesnt giv a fuckin affect to me. ur werds are jus craps! you noe whu u are bitch! i dun think i need to say out ur name. its oke.ur name will be a secret in my hand.one more step of tryin to ruin me n my life. i give u suffer which u never dream off to happen.
NOW IS ABOUT BAD MOUTHING!
i had a fren who bad mouth me during ITE life at BIshan!shes such a whore! bad mouthin me like no other thing to do.maybe u think ure great n evrybody likes u. hey bitch.. c'mon. ur ntg but burden!fuckinsjit like u dont deserve to be call human but in actual fact.. ur are no different from doggies! ur mouth stinks with all dos stupid dickers who feed u.but im havin fun with it. haaa.. well doesnt concern me at all. by all means say out my name to all of ur whore frens.. thnks fer makin me famous. haa..
so loooong bitch!
AT LAST SUNNY TEXT ME.
GOSH I MISSED HYM..
FEEL LIKE CRYINK..
I LOVE U SOO MUCH SYG,
im sorry im jus too emotional.f!
now what? ouh jyeah. before i fergot. haa. jus now i went out wit a 'fren' haa. went to bedok n buy food to eatfer dinner.den we sat under void deck haa.. jus i noe todae afta fer long. shes a smoker n a gummer.! wtf!so wild huh. haa. jyeah but nvr to be blame fer such duins as parents lag of love n concern fer own child. maybe. but fer her case not very sure. haa. only 16 but yet.. haa. i think wosrt den me? haa.
dunnoe e reali me yet. nvm jus let be it secrets between me n myself, heea. dont need to make such a huuuuhaa.thingy well not important of exposing ur own butt!past is past.but if i still do, tats none of their business cause i grown up wit tis life n jyeah none hav e ryte to stop it coz i lead ma wae..those motherfuckers jus step bck dun move a inch of r foot step or ull regret. jus sit n play pick-up-stick with ur damn mummy n keep it tite under armpit.well im too harsh on ma werds? i dun think so koz i noe u guys deserved it.! dos idioticpatheticirritating creature!neva i ask fer ur opinion or any to comments out from ur fuckin mouth. well if im bad be it, if im a spoilt brats leave it koz u earn nothing fyi ur werds doesnt giv a fuckin affect to me. ur werds are jus craps! you noe whu u are bitch! i dun think i need to say out ur name. its oke.ur name will be a secret in my hand.one more step of tryin to ruin me n my life. i give u suffer which u never dream off to happen.
NOW IS ABOUT BAD MOUTHING!
i had a fren who bad mouth me during ITE life at BIshan!shes such a whore! bad mouthin me like no other thing to do.maybe u think ure great n evrybody likes u. hey bitch.. c'mon. ur ntg but burden!fuckinsjit like u dont deserve to be call human but in actual fact.. ur are no different from doggies! ur mouth stinks with all dos stupid dickers who feed u.but im havin fun with it. haaa.. well doesnt concern me at all. by all means say out my name to all of ur whore frens.. thnks fer makin me famous. haa..
so loooong bitch!
AT LAST SUNNY TEXT ME.
GOSH I MISSED HYM..
FEEL LIKE CRYINK..
I LOVE U SOO MUCH SYG,
Written by; ♥sakurako
Friday, June 12, 2009
[friendsfriendsfriends]
good morning again..
i kinda missed my secondary school daes. haaa..all my hilarious frens. well my art mates.they are wonderful. i wish i cud gather bck them all and start all over again.(: during math, english, mt, combine science, art, elective subjects and stuff. e most exciting part wen me, adilah, naqiah been chased out frm cikgu slamah's malay class. haa. we are unwanted ther. but then afta awhile cikgu salmah n me gettin closer. shared problems 2gather but point of tym make fer feel irrtated by my stupid attitudes! haa. den during combine science wher our handsome mr leonard kok teaches ur boilogy. wee... damn gorgeous. (:cant get my eye over hym. till now.haa.during art. me,zarifah,horshi,raihana,ella,and others. had a great tym crackin stupid lame joke which we still laugh abt it. haa. such a memories. raihana oweas with her silly face, zarifah with her fone n dance step. haix.. misses them now.. n miss e frenship.
the best part of e best.
me, zarifah and raihana.
we three are e queen of truants n quite alot of tyms being caught by abraham the wickedwitch! haa.
tat point of tym our GCE N is jus around e corner. and yet we still with our shameful attitude, truancy,
well we 3 bring our clothes frm homie den we went to town, bugis, by e beach, stay at zarifah's crib. palyin internet at kallangor efa house. den wen teacher called our parents we giv lame excuses. hahaa. sometimes mc without reason. nana mc we both follow mc. haa. cool huh.!
wish cud turn bck e tym. now we are separated cause diff skewl n locations. but i do sometimes saw efa. e last i saw her was at simei mrt station. she's off to meet her boify at pasir ris. hee, super cute..
nana, i rarely saw her e last was at her skewl wen i came down to ITE East to appeal fer my course ther den . run wen abraham comes n more other part of us i cud still remembered. heee.
see u guys around.tats it.hmm.. i wondering how she is now. haa. we used to call her sutun. seriously those memorable stuff is jus to priceless to throw n giv awy,(: hey guys, even we r not close as b4 or some of you guys went MIA i do still remember all out silly character n attitudes tat we cause teachers to almost giv up on us haaaa. ur guys are such a great fren in life during my life in BEDOK SOUTH SECONDARY. jyeah even we ever had miscommuniation or misunderstandin between us but we still cud get along well. by callin names n stuff. haa. hide people's property. disturbing others n teachers
especially zarifah raihana adilah horshi athirah n e babes in 4Hantu. haha tat name of class was given by mr majid our PE teacher.
Labels: beloved friends
Written by; ♥sakurako
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good morning diary!
havent taken my bath yet..weeee!(: well.. ive read my frens (efayeolitta) blog about COPYPIGS! still not sure wat is copypigs??is people who simply not original stuff.they cut and paste wat they think cool to them infact, superidiotics humans!well wat writen on her blog is damn true.because they dun hav e speciality of havin own creative werds to describe them.they are jus being motherfuckers who are born to be a copypaste child.such a dummies.and ya u oso dont hav to use such a big werds to put in ur blog, bloggers!like wat she wrote in her blog.haha..well copypigs such a hot topic efayeolitta. haha.. i noe her jyeah.she hate copypigs! well not only her. try do it if finger pintin at you jyeah dont headdown bitch coz well u are truly somekind of dogs tat follows what owners say..haha monkey say monkey do.!! (: common cheapsk8 change it..so dat we know who u r. but i think i noe 1 of them who is copypigs. nah. just keep it to myself. i read it wit ma eyes. n jyeah shes one of e idiotics found on efa's linksphere.
pathetic sey! 2 more of dem.. wondering who .. haaa. sorry such a kaypo of me. :p
well efa cut off their tits n ask dem to eat.! haha..
last long with ur love baby!
Written by; ♥sakurako
Thursday, June 11, 2009
[superduperhappyhilarious day!!!]
todae is such a SUPERDUPERHAPPYHILARIOUS dae!! went fer job interviwe at Parkway Parade Isetan . hope i get tat position in Sales Assistance..realidesperately need tt job.!then i saw my long lost fren..waited fer her outside e HR's office.while tat.. i saw dis billabong bag made of some sort like a 'rotan'. damn hawt!(:gona strike fer it.wuuuhuu...!!afta e interview section ended,went fer my lunch.i had my labut no hap..
nvm.. den we went ot buy onkie!! wee.. had our ferz stick and wentksa weee!sharifah had her mee hongkong.den we went to e op boutique search fer my lappy cover. bck home.. well nothing much is done der.. and in e bus thers tis hilarious man crackin joke in front of me.. damn hell. i laugh as though i noe tat man fer years ..haha!(: cnt pretty much rembered abt tat jokes..
i started to miss sunny oreadi..miss his voice! miss webbie with hym..to see hys cutielips! hee.
he called me jus now.. afta e whole dae went MIA haha.. had werk to do.. werk as mover.. gd laa. rather then do nothing at home. ouh yeah.. bck to our conversation.
i tot todae was my pathetic hetic dae sey.. but den wen he called all my boredness gone vanished! hee.. hys fetchin hys mommy.. hee.. so cyiut.!well planing to diet.. ahaa dream on gerl.!but rest assured im sure i can. yeah!guess wat i had apple in e morn with my HL milk.. damn finished! need to buy it tmr.. i had tat fer almost breakfast n lunch.. no dinner. onli jus now. had laksa, haha deliciooooooooooooooooooooooous!! haha..
nvm.. den we went ot buy onkie!! wee.. had our ferz stick and wentksa weee!sharifah had her mee hongkong.den we went to e op boutique search fer my lappy cover. bck home.. well nothing much is done der.. and in e bus thers tis hilarious man crackin joke in front of me.. damn hell. i laugh as though i noe tat man fer years ..haha!(: cnt pretty much rembered abt tat jokes..
i started to miss sunny oreadi..miss his voice! miss webbie with hym..to see hys cutielips! hee.
he called me jus now.. afta e whole dae went MIA haha.. had werk to do.. werk as mover.. gd laa. rather then do nothing at home. ouh yeah.. bck to our conversation.
i tot todae was my pathetic hetic dae sey.. but den wen he called all my boredness gone vanished! hee.. hys fetchin hys mommy.. hee.. so cyiut.!well planing to diet.. ahaa dream on gerl.!but rest assured im sure i can. yeah!guess wat i had apple in e morn with my HL milk.. damn finished! need to buy it tmr.. i had tat fer almost breakfast n lunch.. no dinner. onli jus now. had laksa, haha deliciooooooooooooooooooooooous!! haha..
Written by; ♥sakurako
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
[PLEASE LEAVE US ALONE. ):]
Y IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?? Y?
I love this boy with all of my heart yet all of these assholes wanna break us apart they have tried for weeks, used every trick in the book resentful motha fuckers, u don’t even bother to look we have a love so strong, pure and true but people gotta hate and say "oh, he don’t really love u" they don’t understand and I really don’t care they don’t live my life, they don’t have to be there they say I am too good for him and that I deserve better than what he can give me but what we have I don’t think anyone can really see they only look at us jealously knowing we are something that they could never be they try to end our love so they can feel more adequate so they can feel like their petty lives are actually worth a shit but what they think they know, and what they think they see I have to try not to let it bother me cause I know what we have and I know what we are I love will forever grow, together we will go FAR
Written by; ♥sakurako
Sunday, June 7, 2009
[IM SICK]
FEEL SO SICK..
Written by; ♥sakurako
Saturday, June 6, 2009
[PICHAS!!!PICHAS!!]
Written by; ♥sakurako
[baby sunny feat galmour!]
damn kiyut laaa. eu both..
dog!!! hee (:
well 2dae 6th june 2009. i weent to expo with ma craziestdumbestbeloved sis & cousin! includin superhyperactive niece & nephew!ahaa (:! gosh! poeple tot i was e mummy of tat niece of myne! hahaa (: . can sae 'HOT MAMA!' like duh ! (-_-)"
den we went to look out fer somestuff .. den i saw one hawt stuff haha.. but too bad.
hys married!!! wuuuhuuuu! ooops! sunny! heee.
wellwelllwell!!! i saw den ANIMAL bag.. wow gorgoeus! i bought it fer $19. hehe.. ori price is $49!! down by $30!! great sale.. hahaa. jyeah .(:
straight afta dat we went to fill our empty tummy ! weee!!.. at LJS! yummmy!
went homiee.. damn tired den chatted with my lovelove sunny. hehe..
webbie! yeay! den commented hys pichas with glamour! updatin my blog and tagged! hehe..
tmr hmm.. no plan yet .
jus now sunny tot of mitin me but den he plan it last min.. grr..
'bite!' hys tongue! ouch! hehe..
yesterdae
5th june 2009 ..
was such a bore!
damn boring! did nothing at home. i jus cooked black pepper fish. abit salty i dunoe wth i thinkink off. haa. day dreaming.! den yesterdae oso he tot of mitin me . still last min plan .
i think hys a last min guy . haha . jkjk .!
my hair was like mess! cut bangs . but yet cute . he like it so be it . jyeah!!
Written by; ♥sakurako
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
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love you truout e eternity baby!!
deeply in love with you!!!
Written by; ♥sakurako
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
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wello. sorry fer not blog sinc e last i post. im busy duin stuff..search fer jobs. plus abit lazy kos maybe to lack of sleep. well.. e last i blog was on 30th of May.
yesterday was 1june2009 it was on monday. went to e expo thers john little sales. den went simei tolok out fer my keyboard.(rubber) as my laptop's keyboad kinda doesnt werk some of e letter spoilt. tats letter V. hahah pathetic!... then had u dinner at long john silver(LJS) (:... den headin home by bus. kinda a boring dae fer me.nothing much todo.
weelll.... todae im suppose to go to JBwih my bro n sis in law. but im not allow to as my aunty kinda not in her mood. not sure wats wrong with her...so i guess i might be stayin at home duin nth..gosh i missed sunny. bi..... imissedyou so much laa sey.. (:
ouh ya.. not only dat todae is my mama bdae.020609! happy berfdae mama.. may allah unite us bck 2gather as a one whole family.. btw mama. sunny wish you happy berfdae.! may god blessed u mama. i will owaes love u.n owaes pray to allah tat to protect u. n bring u to e path wher u belong to. ma,i missed u. i missed u showering me with ur love. infact i wanaa stay wth u n take good care of u. i dint blamed u fer wat happen fer e past 17 years. i knw n i cn feel dat wat u did is fer ur beloved ones.dat is me, adek, kakak. n abg. since dad passd away fer e last 3 years.(010906) dat was 5 days after my 16th bedae. n on 020906 oso e dae i knw he was my biologycal dad.):. dat moment i cudnt fergive myslef mama. fer ill-treat papa. i hate dem mama.. i hate dem fer not tellin me who is he.!! before i cud take care of hym, he 'go'ferx before i wana grant my own wish. but it was toolate.jus too late tobe sorry..! papa im srry imtruely sorry fer wat had happen..)'; mama i wont leave u mama.i willtake care of u wen imstill around..
sunny n i eva discuss abt tis.. if i n hym were to be 2gather,we both will take care of u. n love u.. i wont neglect u mama. ipromise.!
allah,
give me strength to stay strong.
this both hnds i hold up to u.
please take care of my mama.
fergive her.. ilove her..
Written by; ♥sakurako