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Your one, Your only.
Your one, Your only.
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"SakurakoOimikado.
8-teen on 26 AUG - VIRGO!
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Neither i drink,smoke or club.
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009
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me n mimi otw to tamp!!!miss u mimi!!
Written by; ♥sakurako
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pichas of syahrizal n e slippers!!!!
us at mac in pasir ris..
Written by; ♥sakurako
Sunday, July 26, 2009
[sory no pics dis time but will be upload soon!]
hello im bck diary.
lots n lots to update in here. it jus dat i dun hav e tyme to do tat, due to jus get fired by stupid boss over no sales. oh come on tis is business. gosh i dunk tink u suits to run a business to u doesnt noe w risk or consequences. stupid dumbbell.den, busy with something else. like err. lookin fer new stable job n all. yeah call here n ther to make an appointmnt but never seems to happen.=p.
alot of things to talk about todae. haaa. well wher shud i start. hmm. oke. well i think i start with TUESDAE 21st july 2009, then FRIDAE 24th july 2009, followed by SATURDAE 25th july 2009 end by SUNDAE 26th july 2009.
TUESDAE 21th july 09,
i went out with syahrizal, or shud i call it a date? hee. yea a date with hym. but supposingly we went out on mondae e dae b4. but due to hys grandma was pretty unwell so we postpone it to tusdae!. b4 we mit we both txts each other plannin about later on wat we do n weher we decided to go and what will we both be wearin. den came in dis random question asked by hym,
hym:' you what is ur fav colour?'
me: 'err red followed by black then pink last green . y u ask?"
hym: " nah im jus askin =) and what is e size of ur feet?'
me: if sandal shud be around 37/40 n slipper wud be 36/38 y u ask? u wana buy it fer ur gf?"
hym: ' no lah jus askin hehe =)"
me: "tell me laa. if not then y u ask?'
hym:=)
n jyeah ther it goes. actuali ders no stop of us smsin. if i were to tell u all i dun think i cud continue onto e nxt followin dae. haa. oke den we both agreed to meet up at bugis at around 6pm sharp. koz we are catchin a movie titles TRANSFORMER:the fallen. then e clock strike almost 6 n i wasnt even gettin ready but infact he ends hys werk at 5pm. i feel so bad as i hav to do this n dat. koz e movie startin in 30mins tyme n i was still n my fuggin home! damn. he text me whether im out or not. i reali feel bad n i reali made hym feel disappointed on our ferz date. so was like a train rushin n dashin across e road haa. runnin all e wae to mrt station . he was den cancelled not to watch movie but so somewher else.i was shit! he has been wantin to watch tat. gosh. wen i reach i sat down at bugis mrt waited fer hym. i actuali i saw a gur wore green stripe i noe it was hym but i dare not head up kos of my fugly pimples! haa.butit wasnt dat obvious ryte. n wen he approaches me. i was like. omg!!1 he is damn hot, cute, handsome and lot more good attributes dat cud describe hym!! arrgh!! i got this crush on hym hee. i like hys voice sounded so mature! aww..i miss hym now! jyeah!! haaa. well in e but yet! we still went to watch transformer as he told me he went n keep on searchin fer back up plan fer us n jyeah at PLAZA SINGAPURA GV . hee.=p in e cinema was haa.. like a couple holdin onto our hands he kiss my forehead he cuddle me it was awww! i feel so comfortable n yes secure! gosh boy ure my taste! hee.he managed to make me ferget S on dat romantichilarious moment. but still i was curious he brought is NEWURBANMALE paper bag contain two slippers of my fav colours black n red. haaa. but i dint think anythin. haa. hey u noe what he is a gentlemen. he give me way ferz before hym he open e door fer me, wen during goin down e escalator he give me e way ferz. haa.. dont u think is so damn romantic n lovely? then we headed to grab some quick bites n drinks. i was jus thirsty wen he is damn hungry. he is very particular abt food he ate. jyeah canoe polo guy.. cool huh! afta we grab wateva we wanted we both we to cathay n sat down ther to eat n drink. haiya no pics of us together. nvm we both meetin soon. n u guess wat we both got lots of same thinkin wise about ownself. hee.. wow like cute couple with gd chemistry! geez~ dream on ifah. haa.den jyeah its reali late at nite so we decided to go bck home. he said dis wen in train, i dun feel like goin bck as i wana overnite with u". gosh he said dat??!! i was like is dis fer real? m i dreamin or in a dream? haaha.. den i did said dis, but i feel i dun wana let go n apart from u." hee n i dun feel like i wana go bck too." but i hav to koz jyeah 'curfew' haa...we hug, n kiss ech other b3fore i alight. hee.. i reali had fun. n before i ferget tat 2 slippers he bought it fer me n he said dat tis is e most expensive thang he bought fer girls. koz normally he bought a choclate or ice cream.. hee. i realli miss u boi! muax!!!
fridae 24th july 09,
i went out with mimi, to tanjong pagar went fer interview but in actual fact we both plan to ruin everythin n plan to go tamp to buy stuff but duh irritatin sis asked us to meet her before e interview thingy n had lunch with her at wok express. haha we did some camwhore! we both are preety sick! haa. camwhore is our addiction.! jyea! afta all done! me n mimi went to tamp to buy my make up kit, n dress at isetan. haa. we both went crazy our e sale i mea e dress haha. n we both same pattern of one of e dress. haha... den we saw this minah rep haha.. don wish to say out her name
then we got bck home as she need to go bck n get things ready fer he fren chalet.
saturdae 25th july 09
sat was a hilariousn fun dae fer me n mar n waney. haix mimi wasnt ther to join us koz she went out! haa. nvm...me n mar went pr to meet waney ther as she was frm her tennis prac. jyeah we then went to aryies to bought some silly n cute accessories haa den we headed to macdonals to had our dinner me n mar had mac spicy meal. but waney jus sit see n smell. haa.. okeoke.. we shared alot of stories n jyea joke toghter. hahaha... about e man sleepin in e mrt.about e stupid new werds tat now kiddos create like alamak turn out to be aleerrmmak. den nak into narq. tak turn to tarq or taq. haa.. silly werds with funny pronounciation. haahaa. stupid! n mar was jus sitin down n join in e laugh haha.. dats all she knew. geez~ annnnnnnnnnnnnnndddd!! its camwhore time!!!! haha afta all those we went to e toilet n haha.. adjust our hair n stuff. waney as usual she went on peein makin some lovely n tasty juice haha.. opps..! well miss dos fun tymes. next tyme mimi u must be ther oke!! haha
lastly.....
SUNDAE 26th july 09.
at last e both amigos meet in a group. we four went so slack. haha.. but this someone who keeps on wearin LEVIS jeans. haa.. like ders other jeans . haa.. pity! jgn terase. haa.well we went to this tailor house to make our raya clothes. n wen it come to my turn i was soooo damn fussy over makin one particular clothes. haa.. but i did managed to get wat i want. hee feeeewwwh!! den we four went to KFC at whitesands. n we shared everytin among e four. n still crack jokes...i told mimi about e mrt man n she blurt out like HHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! crazy!!!
hey loves cnt wait to meet u guys!! meet up soon oke!!!
pichas of syahrizal, mimi n me, me n mar n waney
n e slippers, will be upload asap once i got bck my cable aites!!
wait fer ma return. haha..
so long n gd nites!
Written by; ♥sakurako
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
[i found this on hys journal entry]
i found this in hys journal entry. afta i ask n read it i felt so hurt. =(
''Must've made you so sad to know that I was in love again Guess all the things that we had just wasn't good enough for you .........When I gave you my wordsyou turned around and you hurt me, tell me why Thought that you was my girl I guess that's makes me the same I was the one that gave you my heart How could you turn around and play these games Now, baby, don't you cry Look in my eyes How did you feel when you gave my love away Now that I'm doing better Moving on with my life You wanna try to come around just to say you want me You say you make me better but all you do is lie Cause every night you goin be creeping with another man I don't wanna be there waiting every night wondering if you are with another guy If I was to give you all my love again you would only turn around and leave me lonely I gave you all the love that I know I let you know that you're my heart and my soul So why you wanna give my love away Nothing in the world that you can do will make me wanna stay ''
i jus ask hym jus now. he said jus a song but infact maybe real..
wen i read it, it was like wat happen to me and hym recently. if he fall in love again, wat im left with? i feel like was jus a girl who keep on receiving hurts n pain..
ive been lovin hym till now. if it true. hav to let go. my heart was cryin n go on cryin jus to bare e pain in heart jus to stand strong koz of love. but in end i hav to let go e faithful love. but if this is e best fer us, i will accept it fer e sake of love. honestly i was not strong wen our love ends. n infact it happen n impossible fer us to be bck 2gather. maybe e next dae u'll find e happiness dat u searchin fer. if u found one, ive to let go of u n e feelings of love dat i kept fer u till now. if e entry was about me, im soori if i hurt u in anywae, but ive never mingle around wen i lost u in my grab.='(
why is this keep on happenin to me? n all i hav to do is patients n move on wen e scar u left is stll fresh.my life had never felt i was damn special. n wen i tot i wud get n catch it . but infact it lost in a glance of my eye. n it went of to somebody else. ive been tryin not to think of u but i cant. ive been hurtin myself by not eat a proper food. lie to all dat i cud move on with a normal life n start a fresh but infact i still love u , infact o still need u. i missed u everydae n nite. haix..
y?y? u give me dis kind of punishment GOD?
mar im sorry i cnt let sunnt go from my heart. but now he said dat entry maybe true. i was hurt by it. omg. i feel so sad n torn.='( how am i tyrin to get over it?omgomgomg!!!
i was cryink. (-,_-)
Written by; ♥sakurako
Saturday, July 18, 2009
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hellohello.
im back activatin n active in blog after so much of things to do. ferzly to dat motherfuckerhacker or watsoeva. luk u dont hav to hack ma blog. if u arent happy wit me or ma wae. get over it. i aint me n i aint u. we both aint ech other. so don giv e fuckin bother wastin ma tym. u gain nothing but names! dun think u are great in duin tat, LOSER. u aint ma meal. ur taste is suck jus like a smell of swineshit! haa... gotcha bck baby!
next what happen today was my biggest n happiest day plus sleepy day=.=".
i guess i starts with my happiest day of mylife. well jus now during werkin tym came in numbers of customers she ask fer this n tat. im patiently waited fer her to choose her main choice. but then in e middle i 'corrupt' her mind with ma werds by convincin her abt e patters n colours. n guess wat she bought it 6 satin silk fer her 2 daughter so 3 ech. it lke wow. den fer her she bought herself a italian silk which cost 89buck/meter aft discount price. ouh god! plus her mum bought 2! total cost was at abt 800+ omg! i cnt believe i cud sell it tat much today. jyeah to u guys it may be still small amount but hey its my startin day of sellin cnt expect me to be e same pace as those experts! haa.. okeoe.. enuf of werk.
yesterday night! i spent my whole nite savin ol my blog post from e ferz one. thers abt 79 post. gosh tat alot! but i hav to koz insyd it der memory of my n sunny since e dae we know ech other.n crash into love life till it ends. hys pics alone n with glamour-his dog! he miss it too wen he knew abt e hackkin ting. haa.. kinda cute kan.. hee well i miss hym. n yesterdae also i tell hym all abt e feelings ive kept it fer soooo long dat i hurt myself jus to let hym think dat im fyne n cud move on without hym. haix.. i do still love hym.
i guess till here..
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Written by; ♥sakurako
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
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missed bloggin n updates! =p
hello daily loves.
ive not been bloggin fer quite sometimes. due to werk, tiredness, bodyachin & kinda lazy koz nothing to talked abt. but todae im gonna tell u wat happen during e last few daes.
2nd dae of werk,11 july 2009.
i was late fer werk as i went to hav breakfast with kak lin. but i felt someting fishy. i told kak lin abt time management and punctuality, i said to her i think we gona be late fer werk. den kak lin says dat LADY BOSS will owaes be late to open e boutique. den i was like 50/50 to trust her sayin or not to. but i was damn hungry den i decided to put aside my worriness. we had it had BK. tiktoktiktok! clock strike 10am sharp! omg. i started to give kak lin a panic face n sayin wth a scared tone voice sayin dat ' kak da kul 10am!' den we dashed of to werk. walked as fast as we cud. i forcin myself to move fast pace as kak lin but i jus cant koz my stomach hurts. den we went to tis mamak shop. n we saw MR FAROUK(e men boss) he dais tis, you both are late better get urself in e shop n don try ur luck to come late lin! he was blamin kak lin fer all tat happen dat morning. den wen we enter e shop kak rizar was shoutin at her at her top of her voice and asked her y we both late. n is kak lin goan teach me about late comin n i got to noe dat kak lin was noted to be e queen of latecomin. so from der i noe. but jus cnt judge her koz i love her as my sis. she teaches me alot durin my dae at werk.okoke.
the followin dae, 12 july 2009
i was told dat im off on tat particular sunday! n went YEEEEEESSS!!! finally i cud make up wit my beloved crazy cousins!! MAR, WANEY N MIMI. so dat sunday oready being planned dat my nephew hafiz is gettin married on dat dae. den i was lucky dat i cud attend to hys weddin dae even i dint even talk to his family side. cnt be bothered.! dey are jus arent my fav. koz dey sucks. soo very e highly think of themselves n over react wen ders lots of handsome , n hawt hunks der. gosh . how i noe? like duh. jus see at one glance u cud get e pic of e characterism of them. dat dae i wore black songket, mar wearing blue songket, waney wearing argh i cnt remmber same goes to mimi. sorri loves!! i kinda hav this S.T.M.
we took alot of pichas. n yah will be updatin it soon! n we did a camwhore in e car tat belongs to my bro. haa. did some make up der touch-up . =p soooo e vain! jyeah of course my songket girls are so sweet pretty n jyeah e natural beauty insyd out! none cn beat them. they are MAX!.
So fast it comes to mondae. 13 july 2009.
werk as usual. reach der at 9.30am . i was waitin them fer fuckin 1hour plus. n den reached n gime a slumber look. wtf! bullshit laa lady boss . punctuality never exist in ur bloody damn soul! n ur owaes think about urself! within 3-4 days werkin fer u i cud sense e type of person u are. jyes u are good n i do respect u. but mind ur werds kak. ur not supossed to use vulgarities infront of ur own customers. but infact i did too. damn fuck boring dae. it goes this wae.
dat was afta i had my lunch if im not wrong. came tis INDIA LADY, went into our shop n askin me about chiffon, i showed her e plain one as she requested fer it so i brought her to tat section. she ask me to took out 5 diff colours! dat was RED, ORANGE, GREEN, BLUE AND PINK!
i hav to unroll dat damn thang n showed it to her. den she say nvmind put it aside fer. noe show me 10 diff kind of cotton. i was like arrrrrgggghhhh! chibai u lady! so i took out all 10 cotton n showed it to bloody damn her. den she say i want this n tat. den eh wait let me decide. den i went =.= '' i waited fer abotu 15 mins fer her to make up e damn mind n she now ask me to show her e italian silk n wrapped around her to see whther it suits her . omg! her blody was pheeeeuuu! but ive got no choice but do it. =s. afta all those end . in e fuckin end she said this. NEVER MIND THNKS ALOT!.
i went pissed of n shouted damn u fuckin typical indian lady!! ure such an ass! damn u!
clock was den struck 7 n i went to met deepak as he wana ask me out to catch a movie n we watched obsessed. n it was interestin n wow! rating *****.
afta movie we went to had our dinner together as supper. at mac. sojyeah we walked all e wae to mrt n we went split to own wae. hee so sweet of hym askin his ex colleauge out fer date! haa.
now all i think about is sunny. i jus cn tget rid of hym fer secs. i owaes think of hym wher ever i go. i reali missed hym. jus how i wished thing cud turn bck n being anew like it use to be. sunnyary. jyea dos daes are such a happenin in my entire life. but i jus cnt force wen things turn this wae. its hurts to face it but i hav to coz i need to move on with life.
but i cnt denied i do still love hym as before. i cnt ferget hym. he is e most n e ferz priority in my life. haix. but im jus sucks dat doesnt noe how to treasure sunny wen sunny is in my hands. i was lettin go one precious diamond.=( i totally missed hym. i hope wen e read dis section we wud missed me to. n sayin i missed u more den u do.
hearts u till ever.
ary <3>
Written by; ♥sakurako
Friday, July 10, 2009
[my ferz dae of werk!]
hellohello! =)
todae my ferz dae of werk went soo 'the smooth!' haa alot of mistake. so good.!
it was tough though. but im havin fun ther. kak lyn n kak riza was so friendly n lovin. they treat my like own family. patiently teachin me one by one how it goes in retail line. ive learn alot todae. the name of e silk, material and etc. butbutbut standin fer long hours make my leg went tired n pain. jyeah not used to it. haa.. alot of 'thangs' ther.. haa. i washed my eye outside the boutique. kekekeke.. notie bitch!
n deepak was so lovely, i missed hym aft soooooo looong since we last met. he gave me a big hug.awwww.. ure sweet deepak! he treat me drink todae. ok laa better den nothing. he looked at me with one kind look. den he said this 'darlink, u loose abit of weight hah?'.
i was like wth? darlink? dier fikir aku ape sak. haa. tapi tak pe laa kan. wen i werk at mosi last tym we both were full time scandal. and cant be separated! haha. he is great guy laa..during our timw at mosi, we ate together, he sent me bck at trafic light sometime alot more laa. den wen he knew i was goin to quit he felt so disturb n sad koz im gonna leave hym. haa. so cute! jus now he say before i go, 'u dont want to kiss ar?'
i say noe thnks! haa. (aku tk nk la kiss kau ape aku dpt sak. n haha yuuucckz! i said in heart.
n jyeah tomorroe will be havin breakfast with kak lyn! kak cant wait to mit u! we will be havin at BK. haa. den i guess not be havin lunch koz BK is consider heavy meal fer me.grr.. fer sure i'll be gettin stomachache.=.=" n it was pain in e eye went i saw my stupididioticirritatingfuckin ex! he with hys new gf . he saw me and he try to jealous me.
oooh peeeelease laa. ive no tym fer dat now! do wateva u want. kissin, huggin, pettin or wadsoeva i don t giv a damn. none of ma business. try other wae jerk! ur tactic doesnt worth any hurt. its some kind of an old grandfather tricks! haa. ure deleted of from my memory looongloong time ago! i got something n somebody else in mind! =P
then jus now olso havin 'kenduri arwah' . haix miss my late grandfather.=( i misses takin care of hym, givin hym food, his medicine, his milk wen he is alive at that point of tym. gosh feel like cryink. n i miss my late dad too. i hope u both sleepin in peace.='( i will pray fer u, so tat allah will give lights to ur grave. n so ure not goin to be in e dark. papa n atok u both wiill owaes be in my prayers, mind n heart. dis is not a good feelin to hav. to papa, i will pray to ALLAH S.W.T dat to fergive all ur sins wen ure alive n put u in a place wher u are in peace n cn enjoy ur life at a better place which is called heaven. together with ol e good people.=(
papa i noe u cn feel me. i noe u cn feel dat i miss n love u.papa, now mama is havin her life with another man, i hope ure fine with dat papa. i noe its kinda hurt n disappointed wen mama went off missin afta ur absence in 2006. but papa i fer sure noe dat mama do still hav in her heart. i get to meet her lately papa. she's duin fyne now papa. stayin n a rental room at blk 45. jus behind my blk. but fer now im not sure if she's still der. haix papa, i miss u reali miss u. takkaire papa, love u!
Written by; ♥sakurako
Thursday, July 9, 2009
[no topic!]
UP YOURS!
HELLO diary,
jyeah i noe dat pic suck n kinda annoyin' ryte. forget about it. well today i went to CHAICHEE to withdrawl money fer 'mom'. actuali i was damn lazy to get my ass up to walked frm crib all e wae to dat posb machine. by rite der one at blk 42 jus opposite mine. den stupid contractor took it off. jus to renovate tis bloddy place. i tot dey gona make it as though our estate like a condo or someting. but infact it never reach to my expectation. e colour of my block was light green n light yellow. grr.. orbit colour! bad taste resident!
okeoke.. enuf of e stupid block thang oke.der funny incident happen wen i was on my wae to crib. i walk along to this block 30+ if im not wrong. ther a group of makciks sittin under void deck. actin like as if they are still a teenage GIRL! ouh come on makciks get ur ass up n get bck home to ur housewerk jus dun sit under void deck n wait fer an angel to drag u up to ur 'beautifool crib'. n guess wat happen. as i walked they look at me in a wae. they look at me as like a princess walkin infront of them with their eyes wide open.gosh!wtf! i jus walk with a 10cent face. i heard them sayin dis "lawa nyer bontot dier"(they were sayin about my ass!they say nice?!)makcikmakcik. like ders no other topic to talk about. talk about nice ass? haha..geez~ funny la u makciks.
tommoroe is my ferz day of werk i wonder how it turn out to be. haa. willi be siily looking like sotong? haa. asshole! ouh yar tommoroe oso my wonderful family is havin prayers fer our late grandfather i guess. but im werkin. gosh. den i need to rush in my time in reached home as fast as possible. haix, now somebody ruin my mood. shit! dun bother to talk about it. such a pain n sore in e eyes typin about wat happpen.okeoke.not SUNNY oke. not about hym.
oke efa stop being too emotional n stop behavin like one of e full time suckers in blog!
=.='
evrytime i blog, i think of hym. evry single werd n sentence ive made it make me think of hym everynow n then.it jus hard fer me to let go.i miss hys present in my life.i miss those golden days. oke STOP!.U shud stop now efa. please. dun hurt urself. dun keep on n goin on lyin to urself. especially ur feelings.. but i hav to make a choice! i jus cant puttin invisible hopes tat he wud come bck. miricale wont hapen in a glance.
okeoke.. enufenuf. =p haha.. ape saje la aku ni. asyik nk emo jer.
well will be updatin u guys about wat happen tommoroe!haha..
see ya. n good night!
muack.
xoxo
Written by; ♥sakurako
[like der no life fer me.]
good evening loves!
ferz of all, im too sleepy too update my blog.=.=" koz im too tired. afta eatin tat tamiflu, i felt so tired, lazy to do stuff (housework or etc), sleepy. i was told dat tat tablets has its own ide effect afta eatin those. grr. no wonder. ive been being a sleepin queen.sleep all day n did nothing. becomin fatter! haa. still wany me guys? haa. bet u still. coz im an angel.duh! thick skin!haha..
goshgosh! ive to start werk on FRIDAY. boss postpone it to dat day as her child was havin tis stupid swineflu. kinda irritatin its like ders no end to tis illness.it keeps on movin n pass to another person soo on n forth.haix. well ive not yet gettin stuff ready fer FRI.its conferm puttin alot of pressure.my body achin all over. been spendin time at home sleepypig.!=)seriously if u guys were to be in my shoe it will be very borin fer u.like thers no life fer me.tis sat waney want to make a plan i guess. den sunday my cousin is gettin married. hmmph! i think i cnt go coz due to werk.hmm. well sorry to waneyLOVE. we'll meet soon oke syg. wen im free or my off dae. i make up fer u and us. as fer on sunday, sorry kak may i cnt get to attend n give u my helpin hands koz like i said i hav to werk. will be payin u a visit soon. hee. like real! dreamon efa. hhaa.
next, people i mean guys hav been tryin to make plan fer me n hymhymhym(diff guy). so call date i guess. gosh they think i got tym fer datin. haix been makin myself busy(sleepin)hahaa.well guys if hav opportunity we meet up kaes. but i still cnt as i do still love hym.=)not fer now guys.sorry i cnt accept ur date. well ask other girls aite to replace me.i noe i will be disappointin u but ive told u guys earlier dun put hopes n depend onme to make n decide date fer us.sorry guys tats not gona happen until i say so.well thnks guys.hee.some of them had been askin me to go out fer dinner, play pool, karaoke, watch movie shopping etc. jyea dey pay of course. u pals must be sayin tat jus go n take wat u want as they said its their treat.ryte? haa but nah. not now laa loves. koz im not ready n i noe myself dat i wont be dated with all this different guys.even some askin me out to go CLUB with them! gosh arent dey blind or deaf. ive told dem tons of time dat i wudent be putin my leg in dat dance floor even i love to dance.i noe myself once i get addicted, tat will be my addiction! n i will more often go ther n dance! no i wont. if u were to pass by tis blog of mine u may read e followin about me.
well. i guess tats it fer today lovelies!
xoxo
Written by; ♥sakurako
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
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heyheyhey
ive been strugglin at home fer e past few days. infact oreadi been weeks. didi nothing much todae. jus sleepin e whole dae. but something makes me awake n alive! its sunny. he called me jus now and we had a talk. jus fer awhile not fer long. we jus laugh wen heard our both voices. as if tat was our ferst tym talkin on e fone. hey imy so much.! wel hope to talk again with u soon. well i was told he is goinn to flight off to AUS wat a great n lovely place. den head off to malaysia to visit his cousin. gonna miss hym pretty much.
and jyeah jus left with 1 day to spend at crib then dats it! workin tym! haa. ferz dae of startin a job as a sales girl. my ferz tym experience as dat position. i hope evrythin goes well n fime on thursday. pray hard fer me jyea people. n i reali missed my beloved cousin
MAR, WANEY AND MIMI. they are my lovelife. they had been ther fer me wen im in need. wen im sad they are there. i dont need tym to come all over from thier crib. but they comfy me with their lame jokes . hilarious! i love them so deeply! guys ure such a great cuzzie i ever had. all e ups n downs n my stupid crap that u guys tolerate! haa. but we still close to ech other. haa. infact ever since u guys appeared in me i felt as though i dont need any frens or love. but jyeah tis is life. love comes n go. dat goes with frens. but hye im meetin efa soon. meetin her afta werkin tym tat is at 7pm. i told her wats e plan wen we meet. goin fer dinner, den lepakings! takin pichas! n lots more.! jus wait fer tat dae! n i cant wait. eagerly want to meet her. afta dat soon gona planned with meera!
guess wat i need to sae dis n i hav to tell this. 2 days bck theres a girl getin her eye turn red! get wat i mean? well i jus cudent understand y u guys get so jealous over wat i had in life. but as fer me i was jus e same as other human beings. imnot somebody hav tat 'thang' (wateva in their mind thinkin off) tat u guys get jealous off. wen i ask wats with u guys, they jus replied me shut n fuck off. ! wtf! did i do anythin wrong to them? did i owe them $? stupid n such a irritating creature. n guess wat they did, they passed around my damn bloody number to all e stupid n worthless jerk! omg! jus wat they are thinkin? cant jus u guy leave me in peace..haiya not happy cn still bring tis siilly matter in a proper wae rite? so childish duh! indeed! this morron jus gettin on my nerve. argh. nvm ferget it.
i dun need to entertain them ryte? so kiddos! get a life bitches. wat i guys did are jus so silly. wat u guys gain from it? haha.. come on. jus sit back n relax ur mind. haa. well if u jealous jus admit it. but such a stupid n idiotic kind of thinkin gettin jealous over somebodies wae kind of life. grr... dumbdumb!. haha.
okeoke.. enuf of those siily creature!geez~ im countin down off to my big dae.! haa
happy sweet 8-teen.! but haix tat wiil be on RAMADHAN! aha. fastin month.. but tats a gud dae infact!. well i had alot of thing in mind to make it happenin. but i think it wudent jus gona happen. hmm. some more its fastin month. nothing cn get in hand. well but alot of things in mind tat i need to get it. diedie must get it. haa. jus financial management.! this tyme round focus n loyal to work! haa n get high pay! wee!! n promoted. .
did i jus mentioned promoted?? haa dream on girl! not gona happen. haha.. maybe it will insyaallah!amin...
theres something disturbed my mind. i jus cnt get rid of hym in mind n heart.
i cud still feel e burnin love in heart. haiz is dis called love? i really love n misses hym so much. ive been puttin myself to get to noe guys jus to ferget hym. but i jus cnt. i fail! i cnt ferget hym. n e love keep on growin. haix.. wat am i surpose to do? GOD please make me strong enuf to face all this alone. almost everydae in life i think about hym. not even a single dae i missed thinkin about hym. haix. gosh. i hate tis feelin wen i hav to get so emotional. but y i jus cnt ferget about hym jus like how i ferget all my exs?
till here.
good nites!
toodles~
Written by; ♥sakurako
Monday, July 6, 2009
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hello lovesloves!
such a hilarious day today! went to own crib to fetch mar ther. we are goin to bedok inter. to convert mlysia to sing dollars! we went around and ask fer e rate. den we end up convert it jus beside 4D shop.=.=" den we went to order food at e hawker centre. n infront of us ders dis lil girl before dat we buy drinks fer ourselves. koz thirsty duh!.=P den we sat nearby e chicken rice stall. den dis lil girl kept lookin at me n mar. as if we owe her $. nvm lar still a kidos! haa. den came her bro buyin coke float. den she was temting fer it too i guess. she called tis mamak n she began to order her drink. she wants e same as her bro. then she said this. '' coke spider satu".
haha.. i was blur n given a stunt face. den of course e mamak dun understand wat she is askin fer. until she shows e glass of coke float dat her bro bought earlier. den i luk at mar face n i burst into laughter! hahahah!!! omg! she reali freak me out.! lol den i told mar about it . den she kinda slow chic! haa=) she began to lol wen she reali get it. haha.. wat e hell. reali had fun with mar jus now. missed her after so loong!
then about wat i did at todae aft went out with mar. i did nothing much todae. infact i did nothing at all! jus washed clothes. grr.. hectic dae todae! boring. den e whole dae internet. but then, i get to webbie with 'lovelove'!! haa miss webcamin with hym aft dat incident!
hey i miss you! haha.. den i saw hys smile n even hys PIMPLE! gosh im speechless. koz i miss hym so much. sooooooo much!! now watchin tv - DEMENSI. listenin to songs and chatin + bloggin + tagged & fb!
till here..
hug n kisses..
Written by; ♥sakurako
Sunday, July 5, 2009
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hello and walla!=)
my fingers are jus too active n wanted to blogblog and blog. even though nothing much to say. ive been lettin my lappy on since last wed during in time in hospital.during time in tat 'hell', hav been online from wed till fri. den off durin discharge tyme.ive been duin nothing since den. koz life gettin bored! now watchin okto. stupid kiddos story.! listenin to DOWN, chattin with ex beloved sunny. hee. we are crappin in msn.HAHA! well, been stuck at home due to quarantine! damn! startin werk soon. grr. life must be bz aft dat. no time to chat as need to sleep early. wake up in e morning and go to werk. like thers no life at all.! haa.. must get use to e new environment later. goshgosh! sunny is readin my blog. infact he done readin it. hee.. nvm la. its past anywae. nothin to talk about. well. we both are friends now. fer sure i will get used to it. jyea.
well, miss this daes wher, i n hym joke around n crappin in msn. haa. sayin each other.! miss those times reali but thers nothing i cn change. let it be then. movin on as normal people. friends worth den havin relation now. koz not e ryte tyme yet. still lot to catch up in life. need to settle alot of things. sunnysunnysunny! haa. randomly sayin out hys name. well so? theres nobody cud stop me from sayin it duh!.=.="
ouh ya 8 july is e end of our quarantine dae! n yes!!haa.now he tot i delete hys pic off myblog. haa. i wont la duh! it all under archive! haa..
kae2 i shud stop! done!
hee
Written by; ♥sakurako
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good morning huggies!!
it has been a long time since i last update my blog. theres nothing to say much nowadaes. well it has been around 4 days stayin in kkh accompany my lil sis. she was suspected havin h1n1 and its positive. well i was also suspected but thank god i was negative. so lucky! hee. then now im at home sweet home.=)
people has been askin me how i and sunny. but yeah ders nothing to talk about now. coz everything's over. maybe now we frens? maybe. =) all is fyne now. but i wont delete hym off from my memory. he's special.=) jyea. buti hav to move on. jyea i admit its hard fer me to let go all at once. but jyea it takes life tym to ferget hym. i dun believe in a werd replacement. well it jus me.
jyeah now im fyne. cud ferget abit. but still making e memories alive. well jus wish and hope he cud ind someone better.=) friends tat cud make me alive now n breathe bck as a normal girl! wee.. cnt wat to meet efa, meera, dayah, n eila.. haha.. but meetin efa ferz!! efa cant wait to meet. n alot of things to catch up.! alot of stories to tell!! meera!! cnt wait to see u. haa.. our friendship bck in sec time! haa.. miss dos daes.! daya my new girlfren! hey baby will be meetin u soon. ! same goes to eila! haha.. rawk ma world! yeah baby! pichaspichaspichas!!!! alot to upload. haha.. well its fun gettin bck all our friends bck. especially in sec tyme! alot of things goin tru together!. haha.. e hing tat i cudnt ferget is wen me efa . nana cabot skewl! haha
well till here..
Labels: movin on life as a normal girl
Written by; ♥sakurako
Thursday, July 2, 2009
[its comin to an end. =(]
i noe u wud read tis. i noe u still love me. i noe u still want me. please ...=(
it happen so fast, wen we cud never end get to be 2gather. ive never tot things wud end up in a mess n u reacted so fast to end this precious moment of us . we are gettin nearer to our happy moments tat we hav been waitin fer. but it never seems to reach e golden line. we had gone tru alot. n alot more problems we gone tru 2gather tat bitter then tis but we still cud over come it. but yesterdae is something which nobody wants it to happen but yet it happen. yes its my fault. if u never start it all it wont even happen . but why? why it happen so quickly? why must it happen wen i truely love u n wana be with u. ive been waitin fer u to accept me to be ur bride but it been destroy n ruin by bitch like me. ive never felt lost like this before. is this being called love dat ive been lookin fer.? ya allah. fergive fer e sins dat ive done towrds sunny. i wish cud turn bck e tym to cherish our moments 2gather. how u showered me with ur love n care + attention dat i get frm u. ur such a lovely soul came into my life. u brought me happiness n laughter of joy bck to my body down to my feet. ur are e wonder in life. u are e guy tat ive been lookin fer.
i remember those tyms we promise to ech other. not to leave ech other even we are not in a good term. i remember u told me u love me. i remember u told me wen u wake up early in e morning from ur sleep u will bck up and look fer ur fone to see msgs from me. i remember u told me not to worry im oni yours. i remember u told me all dat its still fresh in my memories. but wher are e promises dat u wont leave me? where? where are e promises u told me tat u will care fer me.? ive make mistake dat makes u hate me. n i remembered u told me we gona take care of mama wen we are togather. i did told mama about dat. even promise her to take care of her 2gather with u. i told mama all about us, she was happy to hear upon us wantin to take care of her. but yesterdae, she sound sad n disappointed hearin tat everything has come to an end.
she never tot it wont happen also. she never tot we both cud break our promises towrds her. she called u she tried to talk n tell advise us. she want us to go far n fulfill our promises together. buti dint seen want to ans her called.
i cried all nite n avoid my medic n my meal given by e doc n nursers. =( ive been dyingly to talk to u but u rejected me harshly. u said u love u said u care. but y u end tis wen our happiness is on e way to us. and we cud be together. i noe u love i noe u still care but i jus doesnt want to show it anymore. i noe u soft i noe u ther to listen but ur ego is conquerin ur soul. ive never regret havin u part in my life. im glad n syukur dat allah send u to me to make me happy n feel love. but y u end it all. wen i love n don wana lose u in my arm. y u take bck all e happiness n laughter in me? u told me u love me sunnt onli me. u told me u will wait fer me to get use to e situation in ur world sunny. where all those werds gone to? wher sunny?
u noe i love u. u noe im in thirst fer ur love. but y take it all bck with u n left me scar behind e wound?. u noe dat ive alwaes wanted u in my life u alreadi noe dat. n u agreed to us. please sunny give me jus one more chance please i promise u everythin will be diff. i noe im bad. but please give me jus one opportunity jus one to prove to u tat im worth it.please. dun end it tis wae sunny. please remember our promises.. n please sunny fer our sake of love n mama. please. jus one more.
Labels: please give me one more chance
Written by; ♥sakurako
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
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down lyric.
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, down,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Down, downOoh (ohhh)
You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, i wanna see how you lose control,
So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape
So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely,
even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down
Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,
I’ll take you away, hey,
turn this place into our private getaway,
(Bridge)
So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,
So baby don’t worry,
you are my only,You won’t be lonely,
even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down
,Even if the sky is falling down,
Even if the sky is falling down like she supposed to be,
She gets down low for me,
Down like her temperature, ’cause to me she zero degree,
She cold, overfreeze,I got that girl from overseas,
Now she my miss America,now can i be her soldier please,
I’m fighting for this girl,I’m a battlefield of love,
Don’t it look like baby cupid sent his arrows from above,
Don’t you ever leave the side of me,
Indefinitely, not probably,and honestly im down like the economy,
Yeahhhhhh
So baby don’t worry,
you are my only,You won’t be lonely,
even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down
this songs is so meaninful to me.
this is our love song. =(
Written by; ♥sakurako
[dont leave me]
please dont go.
my love fer u jus too strong to let go. too much of memories about us. even we dint get to meet even fer once.those memories of us are jus to memorable fer me to make it dead n stop. i wana make it alive n i wana stay with it.=( oni if u cud tell u how much i love u will u stay n don go? please dun leave me. u are like e soul in me. my life dat make me sleep n wake up fer e next day. nothing cud replace u in this heart. e love tat i hav fer u are jus too priceless. i dun wish anybody to be in ur heart other then me. yes im being thick skin. koz i want u alone. i dun wan u to be elsewher. our love song dat make me stay strong. ive been listening to it over n over again without feelin any bored of dead.
remember during we wbcam ech oth. i cud see e truth in ur eyes.i cud feel u nxt to me. i will neva let u go. no matter how n wat happen. my love fer u are jus so unconditional. i cant bare to see u go awy frm me. i cnt leave wen u are far awy from me. i love u jus u. no one else. ur pic is my company wen i miss u. =(. ur smile is my light to bright my path. ur voice is my life to move on. ur love is my soul dat alive me. and u are my everything . ive never feel empty wen u came in my life. no ive started to feel it. i might afraid wen i closed my eyes n open tmr ur gone ferever from my life. den i dunno wat gona happen to me.
please don go. u are meaningful to me. u are e seven colours dat coloured me in my book of love. if i has to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU. i will hurt myself if u leave me. i will do anithing jus to make u stay..='( please tell me wat must i do.. please.. im cryin fer u ..='( i love u sunny.
Labels: dont leave me please
Written by; ♥sakurako